I've been thinking about names recently.
Someone on my friends list posted about them the other day, and I've been vaguely pondering on them on and off ever since. For most transfolk, picking a name is a highly symbolic thing, which many can spend weeks, months, or even years deliberating over, in order to find a name that fits exactly right. For me, my first name was picked in a matter of seconds and my middle name in a matter of minutes, using the "yeah, that'll do, I guess" pick a name at random method.
I don't regret doing things this way, and I certainly have no desire to be anything other than a Rachel. At least, not unless you count the odd occasions when I feel like making my full name "ρ" just to observe the abject havoc it would cause on databases. Fortunately they tend not to last for more than a few minutes at a time before I come to my senses, and have never lasted long enough for me to find the required text for a statutory declaration, print it out, and find a solicitor to swear (an affidavit) at.
I do, however, sometimes think that I might like to change my middle name. There are a few reasons for this, but mostly because I've never really connected with it, so it doesn't feel like me. This is what I've been thinking about just recently. Various thoughts have crossed my mind. I could just ditch the middle name entirely. I could ask my parents to choose a name for me. I could ask my friends to choose one for me. I could try to find a name myself which feels right to me, though anyone who's encountered my character names in games will know that namings aren't really my strong point. I could go with more than one of the options above and have more than one middle name.
I suspect that what I will do is absolutely nothing, because changing one's name is something of a hassle, and it doesn't really bother me all that much. I'm not sure whether that's what I should do, though. Thoughts?
Just keep on trying till you run out of cake
- What's in, etc.