Life is giving me a whole lot of lemons recently, which I could deal with except for the fact that I don't even like lemonade.
My mental health is, quite frankly, crap right now in many and varied completely unfun ways. But I'm not writing about that.
My computer is also still dead, which is annoying. It's fixable, and I know what I need to do to fix it, but I lack the energy to do so because see above. I'm also not going to write about that either.
Instead, I'm going to talk about one of the few things helping to keep me vaguely sane at the moment, which is Dreamwidth. I can't remember if I mentioned this last time I posted about Dreamwidth (crap mental health means crap memory! yay!) but I've been put in charge of the documentation project, for my sins. What this basically means is that I was given an account, some admin privs and a list of people who were interested in helping out and told "go make us some documentation that doesn't suck".
This has been a remarkably good way of making me feel both useful and competent. I already knew that I could write pretty good documentation. I did a bunch of that on LJ. What I've been pleasantly surprised by is how I'm coping with the management side of things. I'm happily making decisions about how we're going to do things, deciding who I want on my teams, assigning different tasks to different people, and generally just moving the project along in the right direction.
This isn't to say that, with hindsight, there haven't been things that I'd have been better off doing differently. Of course there are. But I look back at what we've done so far, and there's a definite feeling of pride and accomplishment there. For me, at least I get a lot more pride and satisfaction out of doing something that I didn't know I'd be able to do than something that I was confident with before I started, even if the latter is objectively harder or more impressive.
It's slow progress, still, but our FAQ is starting to come together. This makes me happy.
Just keep on trying till you run out of cake
- I made this! (along with lots of other people who rock)