I've made a decission or three. The first is that I am going to clean and tidy my bedroom, to make it somewhere where I can live, rather than somewhere to exist. I've made a moderately good start already (apparently my carpet is blue), although it is still resembling the uglier brother of a cesspit after a bomb blast, but that will change. I'm going to do at least an hour every day, until it's done.
In a similar vein, I'm planning on keeping up with at least an hour of productive stuff every day, even when that's done. Not sure how long that's likely to last, but it's got to be worth a shot, right?
Finally, I'm going to try abandoning the "my life sucks" mentality, and give the Positive Mental Attitude thing a go. I need to give myself a good kick up the backside out of this depression, and this seems like a good way to go about things. As such, five things that I like about me:
I like my sense of humour. When I'm on form, I can be hilarious, and even when I'm nt I ca usually crack a smile.
I like my intelligence. Because regardless of anything I might say, I am smart. I pick up new concepts easily, which is a cool thing.
I like my body. I can't really ever remember saying that before, but I'm fairly happy with the androgynous state where I'm at now.
I like my pragmatism. I'm good at shrugging and moving on, and I Get Shit Done. This is good.
I like my eyes. They're my best part, physically.
and five things which are good about my life right now:
I have really supportive parents who also have enough money to be able to support me.
My housemates, while not perfect are a hell of a lot better than a lot of people have.
I have a wonderful significant other who I love a great deal.
I have a whole lot of awesome friends, who I also love a great deal.
I have enough computer stuff for more or less everything I could want with them, and have no need to upgrade at any point in the near future.
There, that wasn't so bad. Let's see how long I can keep this up.
Oh, and if anyone wants to randomly compliment me, now would be a good time.
And if anyone catches me being overly depressive, then please kick me up the bum, or give me a good spanking or something, because it's an incredibly stupid thing to do, and I'm not playing that game any more.
<random>I, for example, hate my eyes, don't have a significant other, my parents are not really supportive and my laptop monitor refuses to work 60% of the time and I know exactly that I can't buy a new one.
Oh, and I have a cold and I'm going on skiing vacation on Saturday, but if I stay sick I'll have to stay here and this is making me a very unhappy person. :/ </random>
I definitely think you should keep up the positive thinking though.
I do have stuff to be depressed about, but I'm going to ignore them, because they're silly.
And many *hugs* and much *sympathy* on the being ill front. Being ill sucks.
Hey, just look through the many, many comments that have been left in reply to your posts on this funny ol' LJ Thang.
Whassat? Can't be arsed? Fair enough.
OK...
You're (still) on my friends list because of your sharp sense of humour and wonderfully caustic wit, for which I have found no equal in LJ or Usenet. You da
QueKiMonarch!That enough?
And don't worry - I'll always be around for a spanking if you slip, or even if you don't slip. Spankings are fun! ;)
And besides all of that, you're witty, clever, really fucking smart, and I like hanging around with you in irc, because you're nifty.