Even worse than that though, is the following thought. By the end of last term, I was in a bad way, and had to take three consecutive days off to try to get my head straight. And this term the work is going to be harder. And this term I've been here for longer and am already going stir crazy at the lack of privacy or independence (and I don't mean that in any derogatory way towards my parents; it's just one of those How life Is things). So I went to bed the other night and couldn't sleep, and had a bit of a cry, and was convinced that I couldn't possibly survive another term of this, and that I suck and am broken and such like.
But I did get to sleep, and I managed to view things with another perspective. I was right. I can't handle another term like last term. So it's important just to make sure that this term isn't like last term. I had a nice productive talk with my dad about this. For starters I'm going to have Wednesdays off, and as my mum now has fridays off, that means she can give me a lift in later than my dad was able to, so I get 2.5 hours of extra sleep on Friday mornings. So that's an instant plus right there.
The next thing i was thinking was that I need to start making productive use of the time which I currendly spend sitting around on campus or in the train station, or on the train. Having my new laptop will definitely help with that, and I'll be able to take that into uni with me once it's insured. I've decided that I'm going to take a crack at learning perl again, as it's interesting, feels productive, and can be done without any extra stuff. So that's promising too.
I'm also wanting to correct the little annoying things here, that weren't serious enough to fix, as I wasn't going to be here for all that much longer. On that line, we've moved the furniture around in here, so that my computer isn't set up on a table where the keyboard is set up just slightly too high, which is going to be good for my hands and arms.
I'm also thinking that I want to try to get out of here to visit people some more. The problem there is that by the end of the week, I'm generally just too exhausted to do anything useful over the weekend, and just need to recharge my batteries. which means that if I did go to visit anyone, it would just be a case of "hi! how are you? um... do you have a couch anywhere, I need to collapse" or some such. So maybe I might try to just go on day trips to see people, or possibly I might take a Friday or two off so I'm not so exhausted. Elizabeth has said that shed be happy to let me borrow her notes or whatever, if I do need a day off. Or the other possibility is that I may be less exhausted due to my day off on Wednesdays. But that's all good. Who wants a rho visiting them in the nearish future?
And then on top of all that lot, i decided to indulge in a spot of retail therapy yesterday. I used the obligatory christmas WHSmith's vouchers, together with the january sales, and bought the following:
Shrek on DVD
Grease on DVD
Spiderman on DVD
The Gretest hits of Catatonia
The Gretest hits of T-Rex
The Gretest hits of Texas
Bat Out of Hell II by Meatloaf.
All for a grand total of £2.93 of actual cash. and while they generally weren't things that I'd buy at full price, I'm quite happy with the price that I paid for them.
So yes. Life isn't too bad really.