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Good things don't end in -eum; they end in -mania or -teria
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So who here knows anything about biploar disorder? I ask because I wonder if I have tendencies in that direction. But on the other hand, I worry that I also have hypochondriac tendencies, so who knows.

That I have depressive tendencies is news to approximately nobody. The way I tend to describe depression is this: imagine that you're doing something like skydiving. You're about to leap off the plane, and even though you want to do it, there's something holding you back. You have to put a concerted mental effort into actually making the leap. Depression is when you have to put that mental effort in just to put one foot in front of the other. It's where there's a fog between your brain and your body and everything is out of focus, and nothing really matters anyway.

And occasionally, not often, but occasionally, I have spells where I'm the exact opposite of that. I particulalry remember one instance, when I was in 6th form, where I started leaping over desks and then banging my head into a wall. These are, I guess, mania. I had such a spell last night. Everything was more vivid than normal. More urgent. Instead of being held back from doing things, I couldn't stop. The instant I thought of doing something, I did it. There was no self-censorship, and no holding back. I couldn't sit still, and had to be doing things. Had to press things through. It felt like instead of having underactive neurotransmitters as is the case with depression, I had overactive neurotransmitters, that were overpowering the negative feedback (and bleh. I can't remember enough neurochemistry to remember the proper name for that).

So, two questions, for those who know what they're talking about. Firstly, is what I describe consistent with my tentative self diagnosis of bipolar tendencies. Secondly, given that I don't actually get that way very often, would I be correct that it isn't actually something that I should consider problematic?

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FIrst things first, you know you best. I don't live with you or even near you, so I'm in a horrible position to make any type of attempt at suggesting the existance of a mood disorder such as Bipolar I or Bipolar II.

There is a type of Bipolar Disorder, Bipolar Disorder Not Otherwise Specified ( NOS ), that can involve fast cycling between manic and depressive episodes. How frequently such episodes would need to occur to be classified this way I cannot say. My advice would be for you to consult the DSM-IV-Tr (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders: DSM-IV-Tr: Fourth Edition Text Revision), a widely popular tool that mental health professionals use as a guide for diagnosing and treating psychological disorders. If what is listed in the DSM-IV-Tr seems to apply to your life, then I would recommend seeking professional assistance. If it doesn't, but you're still concerned, I would again recommend seeking professional assistance.

Just a note: what I suggested above was in my capacity as a psychology student (Advanced Placement High School level Psychology) and someone who has read through portions of the DSM-IV (not -Tr, unfortunately). I do have a friend who suffers from Bipolar II, but I have not seen her in 3 years - only spoken with her on the telephone and online. This is the extent of my experience with Bipolar-type disorders, which is to say I have little to none. Don't take my word or anyone else's word for it, and try not to convince yourself that you do in fact have a disorder based upon what you might read in the DSM-IV. ALWAYS seek the help of a psychiatrist in cases where you think a disorder may be present, because only they are qualified to diagnose and treat psychological disorders.

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