delirium happy

Just keep on trying till you run out of cake

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Random inane ponderings
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I'm feeling a yearning, recently, towards grand gestures. I'm not entirely sure what sort of thing I mean; it's just a sort of a vague feeling in the back of my mind. I think I want some sort of watershed event, whereby I can find a realistic demarcation between "my life before that" and "my life after that".

Maybe I'm just yearning after a fresh start. Maybe it's just railing over how much of everything seems arbitrary and temporary and wanting to make the point to nobody in particular that whatever I do, life will go on and not a while lot of anything will change. I'm really not sure.

Of course, seeing as I'm no longer an idealistic teen, and have instead built up enough jade to supply a Mesoamerican emperor, I'm well aware of one overarching fact above all of this: it's all bollocks. I know damn well that grand gestures don't work and that watershed events aren't.

I guess this means I'm just going to have to Do Shit to overcome my restlessness, rather than solve all my problems in one go. How awful.

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