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Out with the old, in with the new
So. 2008, then?

Yeah. I've got nothing.

I'm sure that lots of interesting stuff happened, but I can't quite think of any of it. Oh well. I'm also fairly sure that I failed horribly at all the goals I set myself for the new year this time last year. This is why I set myself goals rather than resolutions, because then I dont' feel bad for breaking a promise to myself when I faff them up.

I was thinking recently, that 2009 will be the tenth anniversary of 1999, which was a watershed year for me in many many ways. 1999 was when I became irrevocably sucked into the Internet. I started hanging out regularly on IRC, and I met Internet people in person for the first time. It was also the year that I finished my A-levels, left school and went to university, which consequently meant it was the year when I first lived away from my parents, and first lived in a city other than the one where I grew up. It was the year when Is tarted doing stuff about my gender identity issues. I came out to people, I saw a psychiatrist, I started taking hormones. It was also the year when I first had a girlfriend (of sorts).

In short, 1999 was the year when I started to become myself, and even to become an adult, in a way. Before then, I was very much shaped by my circumstances, and being what I was allowed to be. From then on, I started to be what I wanted to be, to a much greater extent.

I shan't be celebrating all these individual anniversaries, mainly because I can't remember the dates for most of them. Dates just aren't that important to me. However, in recognition of 1999 (and because I think it's a good thing for me to focus on anyway), my goal for 2009 is going to be a simple one.

For 2009, I will come as I am and not as I should be.

Or to put it another way, I'm aiming to let go of as much baggage and anxiety as I possibly can, and stop worrying about how people perceive me and what they expect from me. Personally, I think I'm pretty groovy actually, and if people don't like it when I'm being myself, well that's their problem and not mine.

I wish everyone reading this, and especially all my wonderful friends who help enrich my life, a very happy 2009. May it bring you peace, love and joy.

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Happy New Year! I wish you every success in all your endeavours for the New Year! *huggles*

good luck and here's hoping 2009 brings what you wish from it

You said groovy! Excellent. :)

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